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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
i reckon i'll limp everwhere i go tomorrow.
=)
i think tay must be in a good mood.
he finally notices me!
pretty good thing i guess.
i dont like to be non-existence.
release of olevels results.
yes, next year i'll be my turn.
rain was fantastic today.
been so long since it rained like that.
anyway, that fat pig finally dyed her hair.
i encourage that know.
cos she looks totally horrible.
with the so many white strands of hair.
i'm about to finish another book!
at this rate i'm going,
i can see why my results are deproving drastically.
i've been waiting for his day?!?!
finally i get to watch return of the king.
yaaaay.
i've finished all my homework.
except for presentation on jimmy carter.
he's a peanut farmer!
who became 39th president of united states.
i think i'm fat.
diet time~
i shant eat for recess for the whole of this week!
today marks the end of 8 weeks of aikido.
yaaaay.
i have learnt to defend myself.
so dont ever think of attacking me.
hohoho.
rae is so guai.
i'm at home now.
rushing the tonns of homework given for the long weekend.
alittle of every subject makes up alot know.
i'm not in a very good mood actually.
but i'm looking forward to dinner later!
i'm craving for some good food.
its been ages such one group of us sat and ate together.
somehow, someone will always be missing.
yesterday was ganma.
today will be sister.
=(
somehow i think all lesbians in the world are linked.
i link here link there.
and woooow.
all lesbians seem to know each other.
this is the lesbian society.
i know its wrong.
but. . .
shrugs*
this year of mine isnt for a time to play.
somehow, i feel like i've wasted all my time away.
i really dont feel like studying anymore.
but i want to earn bug bucks.
whats this man?
please please dont touch me now.
let me feel quietness of the surroundings.
i want to feel yr presence.
i think i'm going to the library to study every week.
its so cool in there!
unlike outside.so hot.
and my efficiency is high there.
=)))
yum yum.
i just finished the tub of icecream.
sticky chocolate from swensens!
and i burnt my hair!
i still got the two plaits.
hehe.
baby's at the basketball court now.
woooow.
i think i got pms.
and started yelling at my baby like dont know what.
sorry.=(
my hair has two little plaits today!
i look so much cuter today.
i'm so totally against abortion.
especially when you have twins in yr stomach!
i'm so damn affected by that.
and pamela is so damn cruel to kill every ant she sees.
and ant was squashed right before my eyes.
ohh man.
susan leong rolled her eyes at me today.
what a bitch.
just like that.
my baby's gone.
forever.sighs.
i should have been more careful.
she was so fragile.
gone.just gone like that.
HAHAHA.
but i'm sad.
(good thing i havent thought of a name for her!)
i agree wif berr!
i think i want to open a circus.
for freakshows.
performed by that person in my gbk.
i'll pay you for yr show!
please contact me asap.
or you should just get lost.
this week is a stress week.
i got so many tests!
everyone says my cookies are nice.
yaaaay.
credit goes to sister brother me.
=)
yes yes.
go fuck yrself.
i'm so addicted to mahjong.
went to joleen's house to play yesterday.
and ganma's house the day before?
i so feel like playing it now.
been drinking too!
but i dont get the reddness on my face.
and the flushed feeling.
dont ask me why.
hehe.
tomorrow's vday.
and i got training.
yaaay.
i miss baby.
did you just yucks me?!
haha.
i bet you must be jealous that i'm prettier than you.
you UGLY bitch.
i bet you must be a bitch.
fancy not leaving yr name behind?
yes i know.
you're ashamed of yrself yea?
dont want me to know how much prettier i am than you.
hohoho.=)
you really brighten up my day you know?
to wake up in the morning to see that someones jealous of my beauty.
ugly bitch, just get lost.
i can only use two words to describe most of the cedar teachers.
freaking biased.
like whats up wif my skirt man?!
is NOT EVEN tight.
look at some of the malay girls in 4h.
if mine's tight then what's theirs?
cheng's hair is only ABIT standing?
and lkc and all the teachers keep catching her.
when i bet they never even say anything abt last's years bungs hair?!
the sight of that baboon makes me puke okkay.
and roh is a chicken nana.
i was so wrong on thinking that he's a good teacher.
yes.MY FOOT.
cny celebrations was okkay.
my kor is the cutest and the best part of the show.
since like dont know when she told me she's mc for cny.
i dont know how in the world did she phrase it.
but i thought she's not going to come to school today cos she has an mc.
(medical cert)
grrrr.and until this morning i still believed she didnt come cos she wasnt standing at her place.
yes.i'm this stupid.
anyway, she did her msleong well done thingy on stage.
hoho.she's real natural on stage okay.
i miss you so much!
i still havent thought of ... yet.
how how.
i'm still troubled.
baby baby where are you?!
you know, i dont know what it means.
but everything about you is so irresistible.
my class board from behind!
up close from the front.
yes.the colour rocks right?!
nap of 4 hours this afternoon.
how great is that?!
seriously, i havent been sleeping alot these days.
argh.sec4 life.
i wonder where all my time went to?
finding good food to eat.
haha.
jenn's in indo.
nobody to brainstorm wif me.
frowns*
my shots today were just so perfect.
the tester was impressed!
i miss you most.
sighs.
did i say we had a spot check yesterday?
yes great.
i was caught from head to toe.
hair.cannot use orange band.
cannot wear chain.
nails to long.(i want to keep it long to paint for new year!grrr.)
skirt too tight.(like WHERE GOT?!?!)
socks too low.
yes la.i'm the one wid the most offences.
and chengyi said i'm the worst classcom member!
nevermind, i still love cheng.
i want you to know,
you belong in my life.
should i cut my hair?
i think i should stop cutting already right.
for once keep it normally, acceptably length.
i shall be a sweet girl and stop cutting my hair so that it doesnt stand.
oh ya!
chengyi was like telling misslizah that she saw,
2 pL girls tongueing at some place.
the point is not that they are kissing.
its the word that cheng used la!
tongueing.
HAHAHA.oh my.
thats really funny okkayy.
its supposed to be frenching my dear.
i want you to sleep wif me tonight!
i want an orange skin for my ipod.
=(
blogging twice in a day!
i feel happy today okkay.
stressless.
and i'm eating yoghurt now.
second time in a day i'm eating yoghurt.
will yoghurt make me fat.
hmms.wait.
okkay.its low fat.
so not much of a problem!
digged out my past year handbook.
found qian's picture inside.
she looked so freaking cute okkayyy!
i love her so much.
i want my xiao doudian!
everyone says my new fone is nice.
i think so too!
falling so in love with it day by day.
yucks.tomorrow i have aikido.
lalala.
i dont know why but i'm happy.
i feel so like jumping.
vday's coming!
grrrrrrrrrrrr.
i'm troubled.
yucks.
i'm so freaking utterly disgusted by you.
yr hands are dirty.
yr body is dirty.
you are so freaking fake and desperate.
yucks yucks.
stop thinking you are perfect.
you are absolutely totally not pretty.
nor smart. nor thin.
stop acting you bitch.
grrrrrrr.
i hate yr stupid ugly face.
i'm in such a sanba mood!
cedars so full of gossipers.
even teachers gossip.
hoho.
darryn chin asked me straight in the face.
are you straight?
hoho.got to know some juicy gossips from him.
off to write my essay now!
shall find out more~
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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